Friday night blues

So its late Friday night and I need to go to sleep but I want to do a blog entry first.

Bekah was over tonight and I wanted her to stay but she was all distant and stuff and I was like "omfg what now" to myself. So I asked her what was bothering her and she started going on how she is so confused because of the things we do together. I ask her what does she mean by that and she says all the times we are in bed naked and grinding our pussies together and everything else we do is messing with her head. So I am all "How the fuck is that messing with your head?" and she is all "Because I am a lesbian and while we are getting hot with each other I want to do more to you but you keep denying you are a lesbian even though we are always in bed naked, we always rub our pussies together, you let me lick your ass, I have kissed your neck and all how the hell is that NOT being a lesbian?"

So I look at her and I say "Remember what I said I would do to you if you ever thought this way again?" So I belt her across the face hard and she falls back onto my bed. I jump on her and straddle her and pin her arms down. I say to her "Listen Bekah, enough of your sinful lesbian ways ok? What you and I do is bonding as BFFs, there is nothing lesbianish about it. I give certain parts of myself to you because I know it makes you happy, it is MY way of showing you how much I care about you. But it in NO WAY means I am an immoral lezbo. Fuck, I give you such an intimate gift and you totally just trash it by calling it immoral WHAT THE FUCK is your problem?"

And she is under me all tears in her eyes and she is "Steffi please, I am so fucking confused my head and my heart are being ripped apart by your behavior." I just roll my eyes and pin her arms down harder, squeezing her wrists hard. I tell her "Listen Bekah, what we do is NOT lesbian ok? I do NOT find women attractive. I do NOT want to go and try and kiss or eat out or rub pussies with some bitch. I do what I do with YOU and YOU only, I have NO desire for women or men in general. I do what I do with you because I want to make YOU happy and you are seriously fucking it all up!!!!!".

But she is just crying and not answering. I can tell I am making NO headway into her crazed lesbian brain. I feel like kicking her out and just giving up on the whole BFF thing, But then I look at her underneath me. she looks so sad, so helpless. And she is so pretty. And we do have such a great time together and I love holding her and being held by her. I love our intimacy and how it binds us closer. So I decide right then and there I am going to have to fix this somehow. I get off of her and lay down next to her and she is all crying. I lay on my side and just stroke her hair and she turns into me and just wraps herself around me crying. I stroke her hair and kiss all over her face and tell her I love her and that she is my BFF and we will work everything out. I cradle her in my arms and rock her like a baby. Finally she stops crying and looks at me and says "I will do anything to stay your BFF even if it means not being a lesbian. I don't care about other women, I just want to be in your life." So i smile and I say "THAT is what I wanted to hear!" and I am so happy I hug her tight. I tell her I will research how to help people who dont want to be lezbo's anymore and we will break her immorality together.

So we lay there just holding each other. Eventually she falls asleep and around 10pm I wake her up because she has to be home by 10:30. I walk her to her car and hold her again and she drives home.

I need to help Bekah. i want her as my BFF forever. I need to break her immoral lesbian desires. I will begin tomorrow.

Thanks for reading!
Steff