Camping adventures

So Bekah and I went camping. I love camping because it is nice to be outdoors and by the creek to go swimming and just being around nature. I wanted Bessie to come with us but Dad said it would be too much work to keep an eye on her and stuff and I guess he is right...even though all she does is sleep. I think dad just wanted her to stay home to keep him company while I was gone hahaha.

So we went to the usual spot we always go to and it was very nice. The campsite is pretty isolated but it has water and a small outhouse and a grill already in place. I have this solar powered charger thing for my phone, and my SUV can provide power anyway so I was all set.

The two girls who went camping with us last time joined us on day 2. They are pretty cool for a couple of sinful lesbians, at least they are femme and not some ugly short haired butch lezbos.

So we made s'mores on the campfire, went swimming in the creek and goofed off and had a good time.

At night things got a bit wild. These girls have seen me naked before and last time we went camping the four of us ended up all having sex in front of each other. It just happened, and it happened again.

Bekah and I were going at it really hard and the other two were about 2 feet away from us going a it as well. A few times as we were all grinding and rolling around, we actually sorta crashed into each other.

I was nervous the other two lesbians would start eating MY pussy or sucking my tits and I was so turned on with Bekah I honestly don't know if i would have stopped them, but thankfully other than our legs getting tangled up a few times, nothing like that happened.

After wards we retired to our tent and Bekah and I would kiss for a long time and fall asleep in each other's arms.

I am so happy, so far this has been a great summer.

Thanks for reading!
Steff

Godzilla!!!

So Bekah and I saw Godzilla King of the Monsters last night and it was AWESOME!!! I LOVE Godzilla and it was a great film! Very heavy on the monster fighting action, which the last film lacked. Godzilla looked great and King Ghidorah was scary as all hell. Mothra was beautiful and Rodan was his usual goofy self just like in the old films.

I wore a hell cute outfit, because I am hella cute! My miniskirt was very short and Bekah was all "OMG Steff that skirt is too short" and I was all "STFU Bekah I will wear what I want!"
I am concerned because Bekah has been wearing more and more lesbianish style of clothing. For a while she was dressing normal like me, but lately she has reverted back to her jeans, flannel, and baseball cap.

In the theater I made it a point to snuggle up to her and open my legs but she was all "Steff you are on your period" and I was all "So?" and she was all "It's just it could be....you know...messy"

OMFG

So I told her its not like I expected as to have sex in the theater but the last she could do was rub my pussy through my maxi pad....ugh...she can be so difficult sometimes.

So after the movie I jumped her in the car and gave her a huge hickey on her neck and she was all "OOWWW Steff what the fuck are you a vampire?"

so I said to her "You are dressing too much like a tomboy recently you need to stop and go back to dressing like me" and she was all like "I just like wearing what I am comfortable in."

So I look at her in the eyes and say "Bekah, if you don't start dressing like a normal NON LESBIAN girl I will beat the fuck out of you."

She got all quiet and lowered her head and said "I'm sorry I'll try harder."

YAY!

She? sometimes she just needs to have the correct way of thinking hammered home!

Thanks for reading!

Steff

vrooom vrooom Rocket League

I am SO into Rocket League! It is so much fun, a lot better than World of Warships, which has become a haven for liberal furries and SJW bullshit.

Rocket League is basically soccer but with cars and it is so much fucking fun omfg.

Bekah had been playing for a while and so I got into it and now we play together and sometimes with her cousin Brian online. It is a fast moving game and its a lot of un even though all 3 of us suck at it lol. It is still fun and doesnt have the toxic hateful culture that World of Warships does like pedophile stalker Chobitsu or fat SJW April Roberts aka Little White Mouse or fascist forum admin Niko Power (who is a Jew)


I am a Semi_Pro now according to the ranking system. But honestly, I dont care about that. Its a lot of fun, especially so since I can play with Bekah. I found a very sexy car called the Triton and I use that and I have it all decked out to be uber cute like me! Yay!!!!


Bekah uses some sort of truck called the Road Hog XL and her cousin uses the Batmobile. lol


Between that and work and camping and spending time with Bekah it has been a great summer so far.


Thanks for reading!

Steff

Ok I have to explain

So apparently a lot of you readers send comments to me saying I am a lesbian. So i want to set the record straight.

I AM NOT A FUCKING LESBIAN

Lesbians are sinful and will burn in hell. I fell in love with Bekah, who happens to be another girl.
However, I do NOT desire any other girl (or guy for that matter).
I fell in love with Bekah DESPITE her being female NOT because of it.

See, all lezbos have mental issues, which is why most of them commit suicide. And the more you lezbo out, the more you start looking like a man (they are called butch).

I had NO intentions of being with a girl, or anyone else for that matter. I was happy to be alone and single and chaste and pure like God commands. However, God also commands us to find someone to love and he must have looked on me with favor for being such a righteous Orthodox Christian because he sent Bekah into my life.

Yes, Bekah is a girl. Yes, we have sex. Yes, she is my girlfriend. Yes, I AM going to marry her someday.

This does NOT make me a crazed sinful lezbo.

Now Bekah, was a crazed lezbo BUT since she has been with ME she has shed most (not all) or her sinful craven lesbian ways and is more normal. She still needs to make progress but she will get there.

So to clarify:

Steffi: NOT a lesbian

Thanks for reading!
Steffi

I'll shill my blog where I want u tard

SO I haven't been on much lately, too busy with school and fencing and whatnot. So I was playing a quick game of World of Warships and I said in chat BEFORE THE MATCH STARTED "hey read my blog"

Well some self appointed fat neckbearded virgin starts REEEEEEEEE'ing "NO ADVERTISING! HURR DURR YOU ARE REPORTED!"

Really?

It was before the match started, I didn't spam, and yet this self appointed fat pedophile neckbeard gets his size 54 underwear in a bunch. I swear I bet he was spewing Cheetoh dust all over his laptop as his diabetic fingers typed.

This is why i hate most people and can only deal with a few select individuals. Snowflakes, fat neckbeards, soy boys, white trash, I hate them all.

Really the only people I truly bother with are Dad and Bekah.

sigh...I love Bekah so much. She is graduating this year and I still have a year of high school to go.

I can't wait till i am out of HS and can go to college and have her come with me so we can get an apartment and live together while I study to be a vet.


Thanks for reading!

Steff

random stuff

Not much going on. Its snowing like crazy here, I thought winter was over! Boooo!

I wanted to build a snowman but its way too cold and windy. Why can't it be a nice calm snow like I see at Christmas on the Hallmark Channel? I don't have time for no blizzard!

Thank God our pool is indoors so I can still go swimming or sit in the hot tub. Its kind of peaceful to be floating in our pool while looking outside at the howling wind and snow. Bessie hates the snow because her ears are too long and they get all cold. Plus she is low to the ground so its hard for her to get around in it. Poor basset hound :(  She runs outside, does her business, then runs back in and I have to dry her off so she doesn't bring wet dog smell into the house. I usually dry her off in the pool area then she will hang out by the gas fireplace and sleep before I will let her back into the house.

The pool area (or porch, I don't know what the proper term is) is all insulated from the cold so we can swim all year round. The pool is here, plus the hot tub and the gas fireplace and a few couches and chairs and a table and a 55 inch TV. I like being out here because I can look at the snow but still be warm and cozy.

Bekah used that strap on thing that shoots fake cum on me again. She asked if we could use it again and I said sure, it was kinda hot last time. So she put it on and made me suck it like i was giving her a blowjob. I sucked on it for  along time as she ran her fingers through my hair. Then she got on top of me and pushed it deep in me and started fucking me with it. She plowed me for a long ass time, like over an hour. I must have cum 4 times. Finally she pushed the button on it as she was cumming and it shoot loads of that fake cum deep inside me. It was warm and felt so hot. It was really intimate. Afterwards we lay wrapped around each other as the fake cum leaked out of me and we kissed.

Anyway, thats all for now. Thanks for reading!
Steff

Strike!

Well our dumbass teachers are still on strike. I dunno why they feel the need to strike, they have JOBS wtf is their problem!?!?!?

Typical liberal bullshit. All it is doing is disrupting OUR education! They should all be fired and then shot or put into work camps.


The good thing about this is I get to spend ALL my time with Bekah. We have gone out to dinner, to the movies, and enjoyed our time together.

So a few days ago she says this to me:

"Hey Steff, lets go to a party. There will be music and dancing and stuff."

"Oh? Whose party"?

"A girls I know from (REDACTED) is having a house party and she invited me and whoever I want to bring"

So I am curious so i say to her:
"What sort of party is this?"

And Bekah says "Its just a house party. Just people around our age hanging out, listening to music, dancing, they have a big backyard and will have lights set up and everything. You don't have to drink, and these people dont do drugs."

So I say to her:
"Ok well, what sort of people will be there?"

And she gets quiet and says:
"Well.....people like us."

"You mean teenagers?"

"Yeah but more than that. People who believe in the things we believe in."

"You mean Orthodox Christianity and Nationalism?"

"NO Steff. I mean people who.....people who feel like we do....about each other."

So I say:
"Bekah....is this a LESBIAN party?"

And she looks at the ground and sort of shuffles her feet.

"Well, They are MOSTLY lesbians but there are a few straight girls and bisexuals too"

WHAM I clobbered Bekah with a clothesline. She dropped like a sack of rocks and hit the floor. I jumped on her back and slapped the camel clutch on her while she cried. I yelled:

"I TOLD YOU WE ARE NOT LESBIANS AND I TOLD YOU WHAT I WOULD DO IF YOU EVER BROUGHT IT UP AGAIN!"

she was crying her eyes out sobbing in pain and was all "AAARRGGHH you are breaking my back Im sorry I just thought it would be a nice night out PLEASE STOP YOU ARE BREAKING MY SPINE"

I just pulled back on the camel clutch harder as she slapped her hands on the floor like she was tapping out. I yelled

"I told you we are NOT lesbians!! WHY MUST YOU MAKE WHAT WE HAVE SINFUL!"

I released the camel clutch and stood over her. I flipped her over on her stomach she she cried and spasmd on the floor. I got on top of my bed and dropped the elbow across her chest WHAM!!!!

She started convulsing like she was being electrocuted. It was kinda funny to be honest.

I got on top of her and grabbed her by the head and said "You will never ever ever see me again if you bring this lesbian shit up one more time. You got it?"

and she was all crying her eyes out and she says "Im sorry im so sorry i wont i swear please dont leave me i love you"

So I lay down next to her and held her tight as she cried in my arms for an hour. i stroked her hair and kissed her head and told her over and over again I loved her and I wont leave her as long as she behaves and stays away from sinful things like lesbians.


she kept saying over and over "please dont leave me" and i told her i would not. I held her till she stopped crying and i kissed her and i said
"Look Bekah, if you want to go to this party we can, but if ANYONE asks if I am a sinful lesbian I am going to say no. I get the feeling you want to go to this so I am willing ok?"

So she smiles and nods her head and I kiss her and hold her tight.

Well we went to this party and I have to admit it wasn't bad. They had awesome music, and a lot of non alcoholic stuff to drink....they did have alcohol but i didnt see anyone too drunk. i DID notice a lot of the lezbos were checking me out and I could tell Bekah was a combination of jealous and proud. I hung all over her all night to indicate she was MINE and she was hands off!

we danced and we talked to a lot of people. I met some of her "friends". I kept asking her if she lezbo fucked any of them and she said no but she did make out with a few..GRRRRRRR!!!

anyway we had a good time, and it made her happy. She just needs to understand what we have is NOT lesbiansism but rather, LOVE.


thanks for reading!
Steff

Loved

I feel so loved when Bekah is here, I love being with her, even if we are just walking next to each other or watching TV or driving in her car, just to be physically near her makes my heart and soul sing.

We have such an intimate bond. We have explored each other's bodies time and time again and each time we both discover something new about one another.

A few nights ago I held her in my arms as she suckled my tits. I held her like I was breastfeeding her and she sucked on my tits for over and hour as I cradled her in my arms and kissed the top of her head. It was SO intimate. It was such a bonding experience.

I hate when she is not here. I cannot wait for the day we can live together and I can give myself to her anytime of day or night. It will be heaven.

Thanks for reading!
Steff

Busy busy busy

I have been soooooooooooooo busy I have had NO time to update on a regular basis like I was before. I have been fencing training a lot more because there is a tournament coming up and I want to win it so I have been devoting most of my time to that.

I got banned from WOWs forums AGAIN even though I hadn't signed in for like 2 weeks. Apparently some snowflake brony retard saw something I posted months ago and was triggered and complained to that Jew fuck Niko power and WHAM poor Steff was hit with a 7 day ban.

Whatever, the world is waking up to the corruption and lies of the Jew and soon Niko Power will be in a camp where he belongs, along with all other deviants and parasites and brony/furry losers like Chobittsu.

School has been ok. Its getting cold now where I live but I love it. I love the cool nights where I can sit outside by the firepit and wear flannel and just relax with some hot tea. I love the smell of the pine trees at night in the cool air. Its heaven.

I finally went down on Bekah like I promised her I would. It was fun. I was REALLY nervous about the whole thing, not just that I may not be good at it, but the whole idea of it. Yeah yeah, I know, she does it to me so why not do it back. Well I overcame my nervousness and did it and I liked it...a lot. She did too, I could tell the way she moaned and pulled my hair. I just basically went on instinct as I ate her out and knowing it was giving her pleasure made it even more enjoyable for me.

I am a lot more comfortable now with her than I was when we first met. We hold hands in public now, and we were at a bonfire event and I was sitting against her and she had her arms wrapped around me and it was just so comfortable.

Anyway, that is all for now. I have a lot of fencing and cheer squad practice this week.

Thanks for reading!
Steff

NIGGA PLEASE!!!!!!!!!!

OMFG....so we have this new student at my high school, who apparently transferred here because his school's football team was disbanded because they school can't afford it. Really the only reason WE still have a team is because my dad donated a shitload of money to fund the program because he loves football AND he knew I wanted to be on cheer squad.

Actually the only reason my school has a lot of ANYTHING is because my dad paid for a lot of it. They should rename our school after him.

Anyway, back tot he story. So this new kid transfers in and he is big, like 6 foot 250 pound and he is a junior. AND he is a negro.

BARF.

So I am walking though the halls between classes just minding my own business when I hear "Hey babygirl you is a damn angel" and I look up and lo and behold its that fucking pavement ape. I roll my eyes and just keep walking but he starts following me all "Hey hold up I'm just being friendly, I'm new here gnomesayin? I just lookin to be friends yo." Well I am not in the mood for this shit so I stop and look him in the eye and say "Listen, you need to understand something. My dad paid for everything on the football team. Like everything. The equipment, the uniforms, the workout room, the bus, all of it. And you are in the process of pissing off his precious only daughter. You do realize what could happen right?"

And this black fool has the most stupid look on his face. Like his ape like brain couldn't process the information. and all he can say back is "Hold up, what you be meanin?"

And I reply "Oh, I am sorry I don't speak niggerese" and I walk away while he has the most confused look on his face.

So lunch time rolls around and I am sitting there trying to enjoy my tater tots when big blackie comes into the lunch room all acting thugish and shit. Some of the girls are loving it...I guess because they are ho's and white trash and want to fuck a nigger to piss of their fathers.  Suddenly I feel arms on my shoulders and I am ready to spin around and go postal on someone when I see its Bekah and instead I laugh and hug her. She its next to me and is all "I have a minute before class and I wanted to say hi!"

I want to kiss her but I know I can;t here. So I tell her about that black retard and how he was trying to chat me up. Bekah gets this look on her face that I have never seen before, it was pure evil. Seriously it was like her eyes turned black and she grew fangs and started drooling venom. She says "I'll be back in a sec" and she walks over to that gorilla and leans in and talks to him. Suddenly he is all waving his hands all apologetically and he looks scared as fuck. She walks back over to me and sits down and smiles and I am all "What the fuck did you say to that nigger?' and she replies "I told him you were mine, that only I got to nail that pussy, and if he ever talked to you again I would burn his house down, rape his parents, and fuck him in the ass with his cat."

GODAMN

I love this girl!
Thanks for reading!
Steff

I am back

Sorry I haven't been blogging, a lot has been going on. I will fill you all in:

1. Our football team got destroyed by the defending state champs
2. I am still cute and positive
3. Bekah's parents want her out of the house when she turns 18 (which is in January). dad told her she can move in here with us YAY!
4. I haven't been playing WOWS that much, I am really into Elite Dangerous now.
5. School is still ok. My grades are good. dad said I need to start thinking about college and what the best school would be for me if I still want to become a vet (which I do).
6. Fencing is going great. We have a tournament in Richmond soon and I hope I do good.
7. Bessie had her teeth cleaned and it is funny when a dog gets their teeth cleaned because for like 2 days afterwards they are all licking their own teeth hahaha.

Everything with Bekah is great. We had a really intense passionate Saturday night. We were going at it for hours. I still haven't let her eat me or finger me yet, but i am feeling more comfortable with the idea. But she is patient and the things we do are very beautiful. I love being under her as we grind together and kiss. Just the intense feeling of bonding with her is something i cannot explain.

Anyway, that is all for now. i will write more this weekend.
Thanks for reading!
Steff

Diversity? More like BRAINWASHING!

So today we had that stupid school wide diversity assembly. Supposedly the whole point of this waste of time was to explain how great diversity really is and other such total bullshit.

First off, I couldn't sit with Bekah because I am a junior and she is a senior, so that put me in a mood. I didn't want to come to school today but dad said I had to. OMG whatever.

So we file into the auditorium and the presentation begins. So person...I couldn't tell if it was a guy or a girl, comes out and introduces itself and starts to talk about how different people are and how many great things there are about diversity and sharing other cultures and stuff. This person brought out a woman who apparently is a Muslim and she was wearing some sort of headscarf and she started talking about her culture and Islam and crap. She asked if anyone had any questions so i raised my hand and she was all happy to call on me. So I stood up and I asked:

"If Islam is so great and enlightened, how come women are not allowed out in public without a male family member to escort them? And why can't women drive in most Islamic nations or have the right to vote or get an education? And why, if Islam is SO great are you forced to wear that ridiculous scarf?"

so the whole auditorium got real quiet and I can see a few of the teachers all freaking out and a few of them smiling and trying not to laugh. So this woman stutters and says "It is a different culture" and I cut her off and say "It sounds oppressive as hell to me, and doesn't your Koran prescribe mandatory death for homosexuality, adultery, alcohol consumption and so forth?"

My teacher comes running over and tells me to sit down. The woman is trying to avoid the question so I yell out "If you cannot defend your religion or culture from a few questions from a teenager than it really doesn't sound all that great to me!" A bunch of students start applauding and I am all happy.

Then I hear her.

Bekah.

She is standing up and yelling "I want to know WHY Islam mandates death for homosexuals. I want to know WHY we should celebrate and accept this diversity when all it seems like it is doing is bringing death and oppression!"

The students all start cheering and another one stands up and says "Yeah, some people in this country may not like homosexuals or think they are disgusting, but even they would never KILL one! As a matter of fact, I think most people who think homosexuals are sinful would defend one from being killed by your Islamic death cult!"

The whole auditorium erupts in cheers and applauding. Some of the teachers are yelling at us to shut up while most are keeping quiet and smiling in approval. The Principal has his head in his hands and the people giving the presentation look like they want to die. The Muslim woman looks angry beyond belief and screams out "INFIDELS THIS IS WHY WE WILL WIN!!" and slams her microphone down. The whole student assembly starts chanting "USA USA USA"

It was glorious.

Of course, there is a price to be paid. Dad gets called into school. So does Bekah's parents and the parents of the boy also stood up and yelled. All 3 of our parents are in with the Principal while we are kept in 3 separate rooms. Finally dad comes into my room and sits down.

"Steffanie, you won't be getting into any trouble. They know better than to do anything to you because of me, but I wasn't able to save Bekah or that other boy."

So I am all "What did they do to Bekah?" Dad says she is suspended for 2 days and the boy for 2 days as well. he tried to get them both off the hook but they flat out told him they know they can't touch me so they will punish them.

As we are leaving the boy (his name is Tim) and his parents walk by. He looks and me and smiles and says "Totally worth it Steff!" and I laugh and give him a thumbs up.

So Bekah and her parents walk up to us and I don't even care anymore. I rush forward and throw myself into her arms and hold her. I whisper "That was awesome!" She smiles and says "Yeah, it was pretty cool." Bekah's parents don't say a word to me and practically drag her away. She shoots me a glance of sadness and I am all confused.

As we are leaving I asked dad if he thought something was wrong with Bekah. We get into the car and he sighs and says "Steff, I don't know how to tell you this. But while we were in there they pulled Bekah and Tim in to find out WHY they did what they did. Tim said it was because his brother is in Afghanistan and he hates Muslims. Bekah said she did it because she is a lesbian."

Uh oh.

He continues "Look Steff, I know you two are spending a lot of time together, and I know you got really close with her really fast. I don't care what you do, I trust your judgement. Just remember, there will be a lot of people who will look at you and her with hatred and anger. I won't always be able to protect you, so you both need to learn to protect each other."

I don't know what to say so I just keep quiet as he drives.

After a while he says "I like Bekah, you and her are like peas in a pod. You both compliment each other's personalities and styles. What one lacks, the other makes up for. I think you both have a long happy time ahead with each other. But we need to get ready for something."

And I am all "What do we have to get ready for?"
And dad says "Her parents did not take it well. They are livid. Beyond angry. And they are probably going to throw her out of the house. And when they do, we will take her in."
And I am all "We are?" and he says "Yes, we are."

I start crying and I lean into dad and hug him as he is driving. And I just cry all the way home.

So dad is now arranging one of the upstairs bedrooms. I am hoping they do not throw her out. Now everyone at school will know what she is or was or whatever.

And they will probably suspect something about us.

I don't know if I am ready for this. I am only 16. But I will try.

she is worth it.

Thanks for reading!
Steff

Little White Mouse?!?! More like Big Fat Whore!!!!

So on WOWS there is this elitist supertester/community contributor who calls herself 'Little White Mouse'. she forum spams constantly, if you look at the amount of posts she makes a day you wonder how this bitch has a real life job!

She is always reviewing ships, which means WOWS gives her free crap all the time. She is also protected by forum admins like the corrupt liberal SJW Niko Power (a Jew). Basically anyone who cares question her reviews is forum banned. She also has a cultish loyal following of people who will defend her at all costs and basically worship at her fat cankles. People refer to it as 'The Cult of the Mouse'.

She thinks she is hot shit because of her 'celebrity status' on the forums, but since WOWS own surveys prove that only 10% of the entire playerbase even reads the forums, she is in reality, a big fat nobody. She is also morbidly obese, which explains why she can post all the time since she cannot work outside her home. She is probably leeching off Canada's welfare system (like her pedo friend Chobittsu), which is ok with me since I live in the USA so my dad's tax money isn't supporting her fat lard ass.

She always likes to gloat about her free ships she gets from WOWS, which pisses people off to no end. She also has a reputation in game of being a crybaby who screams when she gets sunk, accusing others of hax and threatening to get them banned. There have been screencaps posted on 4chan showing her verbally abusing her own team mates for not protecting her and threatening to have Niko Power ban them. People think there is something weird going on between her and Niko because there should be no way she isn't banned for her behavior unless Niko is protecting her.

Anyway, her real name is April Roberts. That is public info if you know where to look BTW.

Thanks for reading!
Steff

Mall day!

So I took Bekah to the mall today to go shopping. Well, she took me cause she drove. We parked and get out of the car and I took her hand and said "We are going to Nordstrom and Victoria's Secret" and Bekah is all "What? I can't afford that stuff" and I am all "OMG I am paying for it so hush" and she is all "Steff I cant have you do that it isn't right" and I roll my eyes and I am all "Bekah I have like a lot of spending money. Even after i buy myself stuff I have a lot leftover going to waste that I would just use to buy shit I dont need. NOW I can spend it on someone I care about and make them happy so just deal with it." And she laughs and says "Well ok but I will make it up to you."

So we walk into the mall and we are still holding hands she is says "You want to keep holding hands? I mean, I like it but are you ok with it in public?" And I roll my eyes AGAIN and I say "omg dont be a drama queen. I want to hold hands, plus I want any lezbos we see to know to stay the fuck away from you. I heard lezbos just know each other and I want to make sure they know you are off limits."

She laughs and says "yeah we have Lezdar, its lesbian radar".

so I take her first to Nordstrom and I find Alissa, my personal shopper and she is all "Hi Steffanie, what can I do for you today?" and I say "Alissa, this is Bekah and she is a lesbian and I want to buy her stuff that makes her looks less lesbian and more like a normal girl." Bekah facepalms and Alissa is all "uh...wow ok...um, less lesbian you say?"

WTF is everyone deaf?

"Yeah just less tomboyish, you know, the jeans and flannel and baseball cap and more miniskirts and matching tops and stuff. I don't know, YOU are the fashion consultant!"

Alissa looks at Bekah and Bekah shrugs her shoulders and then Alissa is all "Well ok, lets go look at some stuff."

3 hours and 500 dollars later we are done and Bekah has the foundation of a great new feminine wardrobe. At first she was all hesitant but the more she tried stuff on, the more she smiled and it was like she transformed as she tried on her new clothes. She came out of the dressing room wearing this one piece very pale green outfit I picked out and she looked at herself in the mirror and she was just staring at her reflection. So i came up behind her and put my hands on her shoulders and rested my head on her and said "Well?" and she said softly "I've never looked at myself and thought "Wow" before until now. I mean, its like I am seeing myself for the first time as a woman." So I kiss her on the cheek and say "Now you see yourself like I see you." and she turns and looks at me and I can see tears in her eyes and she says "really?"

So I lean in and kiss her softly on the lips and say "Yes."

SO I just had my very first kiss EVER in the changing room at Nordstrom and it was with a girl. Who would have thought. I guess it's all downhill from here! (j/k)

So we go to Victoria's Secret and I am all "Ok Bekah you need thongs. That is what i wear, it is what women should wear. No more of the boys boxer short underwear ok?" And she says "Ok but what happens when I am on my period?" And I reply" They have thongs for that too, and just wear a pad with it." and she is all "I use tampons" and I say "Ok you USED to use tampons, NOW you use pads, like me. Ok?" And she says "Ok."

So she picks out like a bunch of thongs and I pick some out for her and an hour later we are done and walking through the mall with her haul. We stop to get sushi and chat and she is all thanking me and saying she will pay me back and I am not having ANY of that so I tell her NO and she can pay me back from trying to be a normal girl and not a sinful lezbo.

So then she says the following:

"You kissed me". And I say "yeah, and?" she she is all "I am just surprised, you said that was off limits.' And I reply "I never said it was off limits, it just had to happen under my terms and under MY conditions." and she looks at me and says "Are you going to kiss me again?" And I reply "Maybe, that is up to me. More than likely yes, if it feels right." And she says "What about other things?" And I say "If you mean eating me out or fingering me or me doing that to you, THAT is still off limits. For now."
And she gets this look on her face and says "For now?' And I say "Yeah a girl can change her mind can't she? And if it DOES happen, IF being the key word, it will be under MY terms, in MY time and MY conditions. And IF it happens it doesn't equate to being a lesbian."

I guess he knows better than to question me now because she says "Ok, I can understand that. But, what about your breasts?" And I say "What about them? Aren't they awesome!" And she laughs and says "Yes, they are awesome, I want to kiss and suck them but you didn't mention it as off limits so I am confused." And I grind and say "It isn't off limits, I am surprised you havent done that to me yet and to be honest I was beginning to think you didn't want to suck them"

She she laughs LOUD and says "You mean I could have been sucking your tits the whole time and I didn't?" And I laugh and say "Yup".

So we drive back to my house so she can drop me off. she thanks me for all of the clothes. I tell her I have one more thing for her. I reach into my bag and pull out a small box and tell her to open it. She opens it and sees what I bought her. It is a pure silver BFF ring with two stones in it, one jade green and one aqua blue. The matching ring is the same but has the stones on opposite sides as the other ring. She looks at me and I say "these are BFF rings. We both wear them and it signifies our bond" So I place it on her finger and I tell her to place the other on mine. She does and she is all teary eyed.

So I lean in and kiss her. This time it is a real kiss, deep, long, and passionate. Our tongues dance as we kiss and it is so wonderful. FINALLY I have the BFF I always wanted. FINALLY I have someone (besides dad) I can trust 100%.

We break the kiss and she is all "Wow, unexpected." And I say "Always expect the unexpected."

I get out of the car and go inside and she drives away and I am now here writing this.

I am in a very happy place right now and it feels right.

Thanks for reading!
Steff

Friday night blues

So its late Friday night and I need to go to sleep but I want to do a blog entry first.

Bekah was over tonight and I wanted her to stay but she was all distant and stuff and I was like "omfg what now" to myself. So I asked her what was bothering her and she started going on how she is so confused because of the things we do together. I ask her what does she mean by that and she says all the times we are in bed naked and grinding our pussies together and everything else we do is messing with her head. So I am all "How the fuck is that messing with your head?" and she is all "Because I am a lesbian and while we are getting hot with each other I want to do more to you but you keep denying you are a lesbian even though we are always in bed naked, we always rub our pussies together, you let me lick your ass, I have kissed your neck and all how the hell is that NOT being a lesbian?"

So I look at her and I say "Remember what I said I would do to you if you ever thought this way again?" So I belt her across the face hard and she falls back onto my bed. I jump on her and straddle her and pin her arms down. I say to her "Listen Bekah, enough of your sinful lesbian ways ok? What you and I do is bonding as BFFs, there is nothing lesbianish about it. I give certain parts of myself to you because I know it makes you happy, it is MY way of showing you how much I care about you. But it in NO WAY means I am an immoral lezbo. Fuck, I give you such an intimate gift and you totally just trash it by calling it immoral WHAT THE FUCK is your problem?"

And she is under me all tears in her eyes and she is "Steffi please, I am so fucking confused my head and my heart are being ripped apart by your behavior." I just roll my eyes and pin her arms down harder, squeezing her wrists hard. I tell her "Listen Bekah, what we do is NOT lesbian ok? I do NOT find women attractive. I do NOT want to go and try and kiss or eat out or rub pussies with some bitch. I do what I do with YOU and YOU only, I have NO desire for women or men in general. I do what I do with you because I want to make YOU happy and you are seriously fucking it all up!!!!!".

But she is just crying and not answering. I can tell I am making NO headway into her crazed lesbian brain. I feel like kicking her out and just giving up on the whole BFF thing, But then I look at her underneath me. she looks so sad, so helpless. And she is so pretty. And we do have such a great time together and I love holding her and being held by her. I love our intimacy and how it binds us closer. So I decide right then and there I am going to have to fix this somehow. I get off of her and lay down next to her and she is all crying. I lay on my side and just stroke her hair and she turns into me and just wraps herself around me crying. I stroke her hair and kiss all over her face and tell her I love her and that she is my BFF and we will work everything out. I cradle her in my arms and rock her like a baby. Finally she stops crying and looks at me and says "I will do anything to stay your BFF even if it means not being a lesbian. I don't care about other women, I just want to be in your life." So i smile and I say "THAT is what I wanted to hear!" and I am so happy I hug her tight. I tell her I will research how to help people who dont want to be lezbo's anymore and we will break her immorality together.

So we lay there just holding each other. Eventually she falls asleep and around 10pm I wake her up because she has to be home by 10:30. I walk her to her car and hold her again and she drives home.

I need to help Bekah. i want her as my BFF forever. I need to break her immoral lesbian desires. I will begin tomorrow.

Thanks for reading!
Steff

So this is Monday

Another Monday in the books for cute positive Steffi.

I am in bed just relaxing. School was ok today, I am all caught up on my projects and homework. So far I am doing very well, which makes ME and dad happy.

I was thinking about Bekah all today. I loved yesterday when we cuddled in my bed. It felt REALLY good to be naked with her and have her on top of me as we cuddled. I keep remembering how I laid there with my legs around her waist as we rubbed against each other. It felt so good to share that with her, I have to admit I got really wet from it and it just made it feel so much better. I remember how she had her head buried in my shoulder as I moved my hips up and down and she met each thrust of my hips with her own, and how sometimes she would arch her back and look me in the eyes  as she grinded against me. A few times she sat up and bent her head back as we grinded against each other and I held her hips in my hands and pulled her back and forth against me. She would look down and watch our pussies rub against each other and I also would look at them. She moaned very softly and the look in her face was like she was in her own world.

I really loved how she would run her hands all over my stomach as we grinded. Sometimes she would grind really fast and hard and I would match her and sometimes she would do it soft and slow. Then she would lay back down on top of me and touch her forehead to mine and our noses would touch and she would pump up and down really fast and I would push back and I could feel how wet and slick we both were as our wetness mingled together. I actually ran my hands over her ass a few times and it felt really hard and solid. I would grab her ass cheeks and spread them apart and that seemed to make her grind against me harder.

When we finished we were both sweaty and tired and I lay against her on my side with my leg draped over her waist. She kept planting little kisses all over the top of my head, which I thought was adorable. I looked down and I could see how wet our pussies were and it was kinda sexy to see it and know her wetness was mixed with mine inside of me. I guess we really bonded by doing this, which is great...she is my BFF and I wanted to make her happy.

Anyway, I want to do it again with her. I think this is a good way to make her happy since she knows I am not a lesbian and she cant kiss or eat me or anything. This is an acceptable substitute I can give her. I look at it as a bonding thing, a way for us to share something intimate as friends and not as lezbo lovers (which would be sinful).

Anyway, time for bed!
Thanks for reading!
Steff

Sunday stuff

So another Sunday comes to an end. It was an eventful day in the hella cute life of Steffi.

So I woke up this morning and called Bekah. I wanted to see how her "date" went and if she had lezbo sex. So she answers the phone all quiet and says "hey Steff". And I am all "So? do you dyke out?" and she says "I didn't go I cancelled the date."

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!!!!!!!!!!

So I am all "You cancelled? if you were going to cancel why didn't you just stay here with me!??!" And she said "I cancelled it as I was halfway to her house. I called and said my car was acting up and I had to reschedule. Then I just drove around a bit and went home."

OMFG

So i say "Well why did u cancel? I thought you wanted to get lezbo fucked." And she said "After seeing you I just wasn't in the mood, I needed to be alone." And I said "OMG whatever, come over" and she said "I don't know" and I wasn't having ANY of that so I tell her to get her ass over my house like NOW.

So she comes over and dad is all "hey Bekah" and dad says that if we are going to hang out at the house we need to be fully clothed or stay upstairs because friends are coming over for football. SO Bekah comes up to my room and sits on my bed and I look at her and say "Ok, what the fuck is going on?" And she says "After seeing you it just put me in a mood, I can't explain. I just needed to be alone for a while, that is all."

OMG such a drama queen.

So I decided to be all kind and nurturing and I sit behind her and start rubbing her shoulders and am all "It's ok bekah, you are my BFF and even if you are a sinful lezbo I will still always be your BFF, I promise." So she says "that feels good" and I rub her shoulders harder and start massaging her neck. I leaned back on my bed and pull her down with me so she is laying in my arms as I massage her shoulders. I pull her hair back and lightly kiss the nape of her neck and she moans softly. So I massage her shoulders for like an hour, telling her she is my BFF forever as she just melts in my arms. After a while I hug her tight and and softly kiss the top of her head. I think she fell asleep but she is awake and she says to me "I really do love being your BFF, I was scared when we started talking that you'd tell everyone who I really am." and I said to her "I'll never tell, it is a secret until you want it out."

So she turns over and now she is lying on top of me and she says to me softly "Can we be naked?" and I say "sure". So I lift off my tank top and go to pull off my thong and she says "can I?' so I shake my head yes and she slowly puts her fingers under the fabric of my panties and pulls them off of me. She leans back and I spread my legs for her, giving her a full view. she sighed and said "you have no idea" and I replied "I do know, believe me i do". So she lifts off her shirt and takes her bra off. she pulls off her jeans and her panties. I reach up and grab her by the shoulders and pull her onto me. I wrap my legs around her waist and say "You will always be my bff" she she sighs and kisses the top of my head.

I snuggle up to her and wrap my legs tight around her waist.I can feel her pussy against mine and I slowly start to move my hips back and forth and up and down, just ever so lightly. I can feel how wet she is and I know its dripping inside of me. So I make little circle motions with my hips and Bekah moves her hips in response. I ran my hands all up and down her back at the same time. She buried her head in my shoulder as we continue to rub against each other for nearly an hour. Finally our movements get slower and slower and we snuggle together and fall asleep till about 3 pm.

We got up and she smiled and said "I would rather sleep next to you as a friend like that forever than let another girl touch me." so I hug her tight and say "yeah, me too."

so we get dressed and go downstairs and make lunch as dad and his friends watch football (I actually put sweatpants on believe it or not). We finished the day watching Tv and playing Call of Duty.

So back to school tomorrow...BOO!!!!!

Thanks for reading!
Steff

Punishment!

Its around 1am Saturday night and I can't sleep so I will write a blog entry.

So Bekah was over today. After the football game (which we won, YAY!) Bekah drove me home. dad went with his friends to some fishing show, I have no idea, so it was me and Bekah in my house. We went up to my room (I was still in my cheer outfit) and I was all happy because we won. I plopped down on my bed and asked Bekah if she liked my cheers and she said yes. So i asked her what she wanted to do and she said she couldn't stay late because she had a DATE TONIGHT.

What the actual fuck......

So I am all "Who the hell are you having a date with?" and she says "This girl I know from a few towns over, we met online and I haven't seen her in a while so I am going to go see her and we are going out." So I am all "Is she a lesbian too?!?!" and Bekah says "yes." I ask her if she is going to have lezbo sex with her and she says "I hope so."

What
the
fuck.....

So I am mad so I am all "Fine, whatever". I mean, whatever she is a lezbo and I am not but she is still MY BFF which means I COME FIRST....omfg...she needs to learn this. SO Bekah is all "Are you ok? are you mad?" and I am all "No, do whatever you want, go be lezbo if you must."

So Bekah sits next to me and says "Steff, you keep telling me you AREN'T a lesbian, but you are acting all mad and jealous that I have a date. What the hell is wrong?" so I turn over on my back and I say "You are my BFF, I should come first." So she says "You are also my BFF and you DO come first but I also need to date and be with other girls like me sometimes."

So I say "But I wanted to spend tonight with you!" and she says " I know but I also have a life too, and I have to live it, you need to understand." I wanted her to stay with me so i slowly start to open my legs and I am all "stay with me" and she says "Steff, stop it. That is not going to work this time. You always tease me and show me yourself but you wont give me yourself, that is why I am going out with someone tonight." So I say "I dont give you myself because I am NOT a lesbian!"

So Bekah lays down on her back next to me and stares up at the ceiling and says "I know you aren't, but I AM and I need to be with my own kind sometimes."

So I get a bright idea. I flip over and sit on her waist, straddling her. And I say "Ok but first I want to shower with you." and she is all "No Steff, no teasing." And I put my hands under her shirt to lift it up and she is FIGHTING ME and is all "Stop Steff". So I keep trying to lift her shirt up and she keeps stopping me and I am all "I want to see you" and she is all "Steff, no, its too much for me."

So I try to unbutton her shorts and unzip them and she tries stopping me and I am all "I want to see your pussy" and she is all "NO, cmon Steff" so I keep trying to unbutton and unzip her and she keeps trying to stop me. So I pin her arms down and I lean right up into her face and I say "I want to see your pussy before you let that lesbian eat it" and she says "Steff, no" So I say "I KNOW you will be thinking of me while she eats you, admit it." And she gets this look on her face and quietly says "Yes." So I say "So let me see your pussy then." And I try pulling her pants off and she keeps trying to stop me, but not as much as before.

SO I say to her "I know when she is eating your pussy and licking inside you, you will be imagining its me. But it never will be, all you'll ever be able to do is dream about it." And she softly says "I know." So again i say "Let me see your pussy" and this time she doesnt fight me. I unbuttoned her jeans shorts and unzipped them and pulled them off of her. I can see her panties are soaking wet, so I say "I know this is turning you on, you are all wet." and she softly says "Yes." so I run my fingers across her stomach and inside her panties and I can feel her wetness on my fingers and I pull her panties off. I lift her shirt up and undo her bra and now she is naked underneath me.

So i say to her "From now on whenever I want to see you naked do NOT fight me on it ok?" and she says "Yes" softly.  I look down and I can see her pussy is soaking wet. So I get off of her and take her hands and pull her up off the bed. I wrap my arms around her and she holds me tight and I whisper to her "Youll never have me and this is punishment for your sinful wicked lesbian desires. do you understand?" and she says "yes." and so I take her hands and lead her into the bathroom. I get undressed and we shower together.

Afterwards we dry off and she gets dressed and says she has to go for her date. I tell her to have a nice time and she drives off.

So now I am in bed wondering if that lesbian is eating her out. I guess I will find out tomorrow!

Thanks for reading!
Steff

Saturday

Well it is Saturday morning and in a few hours I will be cheering on our football team as it goes for win #3. The whole cheer squad has been practicing this new routine and I am hopeful we can pull it off cause it is rather complicated.

Bekah and I saw that new movie "Mother" last night. GROSS!! I mean, it was scary but it was more gruesome than scary, which kind of took the whole scariness aspect of it away.

Movies can be scary without blood and gore and graphic sexual things, but Hollywood is run by (((them))) and this is all those parasites care about.

That is all for now. I will write more tonight!

Thanks for reading!
Steff

night thoughts

I'm tired and in bed and cannot sleep so I will write some thoughts.

People think I have it easy because I am hella cute and positive and have a lot of money and a huge house. But it hasn't all been so easy. A lot of people do not like me because I speak my mind and give my opinion blunt and to the point. A lot of people in my school resent me because dad and I have money and a lot of people in my school do not so they are jealous. They also think I am some sort of traitor because dad hired a vocal coach so i would lose my Appalachia accent. They think I turned my back on where I came from. Well DUH no shit I turned my back on it because it SUCKED!!!! You think I liked living in a trailer in poverty!?! NO! That accent was a constant reminder where I came from and dad did NOT want me to be forever re-judged because of how I talked. he went through a lot of shit because if his own accent in the business world and he did NOT want me to suffer the same.


Bessie (my basset hound) is very lazy. All she does is sleep. But it is ok because she is awesome in her own way. She is also very snuggly and has huge floppy ears which are SO cute.


Bekah is my BFF. I am so happy she is in my life. I LOVE teasing her, it gets her so frustrated it is adorable. But I also love the feeling of power I get from doing it. I love teasing her with little glimpses of myself and comments. then, when we are alone, I can torture her even more. But is also true I love sleeping cuddled up with her. I feel warm and safe and protected and loved. Even though she wants me, she knows she cannot cross that line, and she never even tries. That is why I will sleep in her arms, because I trust her not to try anything. I think it is the purest form of friendship you can have.

I made her tell me all the sexual things she wanted to do to me, I told her to go into detail of everything. She took an hour to paint a picture of what she would do to me. the whole time she was telling me i booped her on the nose of teased her hair. it was adorable.

ok now i am sleepy so i am going to bed.
Thanks for reading!
Steff